Whether you follow Facebook, Pinterest or other sources you no doubt have seen a variety of positive sayings to persuade you to let go of past baggage. I believe in it too though I can tell you from personal experience it’s easier said than done. We can spend our whole lives trying. Some never succeed. That just makes you human not a bad person!
You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don’t try to forget the mistakes, but you don’t dwell on it. You don’t let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space.
Johnny Cash
For decades I wrote two blogs. One was on CAD (Computer Aided Drafting). I blogged almost every day with screen captures of tips and tricks, new pieces, or anything I believed would be helpful to readers. It was shared among many industry experts. I changed careers. I thought it would be on the Internet forever. I never checked it. One day a few years later I wanted to share something from it. Low and behold I found that it was gone! Where did it go? As it turned out the site that I used was sold to someone else. Emails were sent to notify. I no longer had the email so never knew anything about it. I was so mad! I was mad at myself. I was blaming myself for not checking it regularly. The anger stuck with me for far too long.
The other blog was almost daily posts about my late husband’s Multiple Myeloma. It was originally started when he was going for a stem cell transplant so I didn’t need to email or call everyone we knew. They could just check the blog. Later it became and outlet of sorts and a way to share with other patients. I have met some other patients since then and while I can share a little in an email, all the info that might give them hope or take their minds off their own cancer from the blog is gone.
It was only a blog, right? It wasn’t as if I had a health problem or lost a family member. It wasn’t serious. Do you think I’m crazy? It sounds silly, right? I still get frustrated if it comes to my mind. Luckily that’s not often. I think I’m mostly mad at myself. I have never really committed to another blog the way I did that one because my heart just isn’t in it after that.
I’m lucky. I only have a small handful of events that have stuck with me that I can’t get over. Some folks have much more. What is it that irritates you years after it happened? Was it an incident with a family member? Did a friend do you wrong? Are you mad at yourself?




























